And while I was lying in bed, Thing 1's school called. She was running a fever and they wanted someone to come pick her up. M. went and got her, then took off to the basement to sleep, and my princess spent the day in bed with me. Playing her game. And reading books. Loudly. So... no sleep was had.
Thankfully the CLSC *finally* called today about an appointment to follow up with me (since presently I'm taking TWO medications that mess with my brain and have zero persons following me) but it's not until May. One more month of this. Hopefully I'll adapt but it's been 2.5 weeks and so far I'm just constantly exhausted and sad. But. Not anxious. So I guess that's one positive. I feel like my highs are gone, my lows are worse, but I'm not stressed about much. Honestly, I really don't care about much... except the things that make me sad. Those I bawl over. I've been crying way more than usual and again - I suspect the meds. I don't know if this is how normal people feel and I've just been abnormal up to this point, or if I'm actually really off and should be worried but I guess I'll have to wait and address that with the person I see in May. Until then, forge onwards soldier.
I was supposed to take Wrynn to the vet this evening for his follow up shots, but I called them and rescheduled. There was honestly no way I was going anywhere. I feel bad, because the rescue was adamant that the shots needed to be within a week of April 6th but there's not much I could do. I can't ask people to take my cat to the vet for me, I don't have a car, and travelling 1.5-2 hours to a different city with a cat in carrier, by bus, while dizzy, just isn't feasible. As my SL pointed out when I attempted to work today despite being sick, passing out is bad and taking care of yourself is important. Sorry kitty, your shots will have to wait a week.
I guess one good thing is - look at me with the phone calls. I used to avoid the phone due to my anxiety and now I'm answering every call that comes in and even making outgoing calls myself. Without panic. This is new, and important. It's a good step. A positive side-effect. At least I'm having some of those.
And really, that concludes my day. I played a little bit of Child of Light, but I was mostly distracted and hit the "Game Over", a.k.a., "you suck" screen a few times because my head was spinning and I just couldn't concentrate. I'm at the point in the game where I'm cleaning up, completing, leveling a bit... and then final boss. The story is basically done. Hopefully I'll feel well enough tomorrow to finish it. Good night folks. <3