I've been feeling off for the last few days so I wasn't entirely surprised, but I had hoped that I would skip the sick day since I don't have any paid ones left (that's what happens when you end up having to take regular mental health days) - as with everything in my life, I got a big fat no for that hope. As of right now my voice is somewhat back, although it's weak and talking makes me cough. Hopefully I'll feel a lot better when I wake up tomorrow because I can't keep missing days. This really sucks.
Yesterday I caught a sudden urge to paint, but the day was kind of busy and I didn't get around to it. Today, I got down to it. I have never painted before, unless you count one or two shitty projects for art class in high school. I'm also really bad with forming images in my head so pulling something out and putting it down is difficult for me. Still, I did it - and I'm actually not entirely displeased with the results. The rocks/coastline could use some definitely work, but the water, waves, and sky look pretty decent. And of course I painted the water - what else would I do? I had one other idea but it was more involved and will take some planning. I'm also going to need my larger canvas for that - a willow over a lake, with a fox hiding amongst the bushes while tiny fairies flutter over the water. It's ambitious, considering I don't know how to paint or draw with any real skill, but I'll eventually get there. In the meantime, I'll keep practicing. I had fun mixing the colours.
Larger canvas in the background.
I also haven't forgotten that I need to make things for five people before the end of the year. B., I promise that your wire-wrapped necklace is coming - I'll start working on it soon. I'm hoping to set up an actual crafting area with better lighting, because painting in low-light was a really shitty experience and beading/wire-wrapping in low light isn't much better. I need to invest in a strong desk lamp. An easel for painting would also be good, and shelves to store my paint. My mind is in planning mode.
And that was my day. I'm glad that I'm starting to feel crafty again - the recent events and changes in my life have really messed with me and I feel like I'm finally getting back on some kind of track. I want a crafting den. Something fabulous and filled to the brim with crafting materials and colour and a gigantic mess that I don't care about because it's art. I'm not sure how/where I'm going to set this up, but I have a few ideas. The shed in the back is wired for electricity and it's not really used for anything other than storing the lawn mower. If I can get it properly floored and put in heating - *gets a dreamy look in her eyes.* I've had these thoughts before, for different reasons and for someone who wasn't me, but it's time. It's time for me to focus on who I am and to live my life that way. And when I'm healthy, when I'm me, I'm crafty. I always have been. It's time to see more of it.
New goals. New life. New me. :) Hey there 2018, let's make the second half of you better than the first, okay?